Chloes Chaos

Better late than never…  I have realised I haven’t been keeping to my desired schedule of writing every day so I am throwing a quick dribble up.    This has not been for lack of trying though.    I have written and then deleted a couple of posts, throwing back to my notes app instead, because I have thought too much about who could stumble upon my random musings.    I am disappointed in myself as the whole point of this, isn’t for me to write for, or with, anyone’s opinion in mind.    A weird byproduct of being an “elder millennial”, we understand and remember the world before opinions were recorded so have that freedom of thought, but we went through puberty unedited and have some shame.    We became adults as the internet was going through its awkward early stages so we remember and some of us, choose our words carefully.    Disappearing content and ability to edit messages, posts and photos, gives the new, and the previ...

  Monday Boat Ride… It’s a shame that these beautiful houses seemed not lived in,  they too, are victims of capitalism. As a house is not a home when nobody lives in it. A house without inhabitants is something that exists without purpose, Much like me I suppose…

  22.04.24 — daily commute Empty carriages and the smell of nothing.  These  suburban aeroplanes are passing through cut and paste background scenes from badly made TV soap operas.  Tattooed chariots that roar like lions chasing the prey that is capitalism,   delivering me, like a sacrifice, to give up my days to pay the ticket price to do it all over again tomorrow…

23.06.24, 12:46am The passing of a loved one is never easy, it doesn’t get easier with age, you are just used to it or have learnt to accept it with time. As I sit in the dying body of my beloved, seeing them thriving the way they should have been from day one, I can’t help but feel joy mixed with the sadness that is close to eclipsing me. I remember seeing the naked bones before they were born and imagining creating something of my own here.    It wasn’t to be and I moved on, hoping and wishing for something more than this city offered. To my delight, when they opened the doors, it was everything I had dreamed, so much so it was like someone had seen inside my desires and birthed the child i had so longed for. 5 years of birthdays, date nights, hosting out of state visitors, celebrating, commiserating all of it to come to an end. The regrets of not spending more time here, the what ifs and could I have done mores? I got to see my dream exist without any risk to myself. And no...

  So if you know me or not, I am Chloe, I’m 40 and am currently sitting on week 22(?) of not working. I injured myself at mahi (work) last year and just had surgery in March, currently in my healing era.  Being confined to the whare (house) has been something of an adjustment, as for the most part of my life and basically the entirety of my career, I have been a social creature. I firstly welcomed the break and excuse to not do anything, but as the weeks have continued to pass by, I have become increasingly aware of how this isolation, is comfortably creeping into my brain.  Not for lack of wanting to leave, mind you, I am in pain, I am uncomfortable and when I cant fight, I want to cry. All this could be combatted if my gentle giant of a dog, could behave more predictably when out walking, but not having the strength to control the 50kg baby horse means I cant do it alone.*  I was able to do a few shifts here and there at my job, but again, the lack of dexterity mak...

There are classic movies for every generation and then there are classic movies for every genre. SINNERS is a movie that is both a genre and generational masterpiece, bringing to back to the screen the art of intertwining the horror story, with period accuracy. Coogler has crafted a classic Vampire film that encompasses the lore with folk tales that are cross cultural and used the painful history of the south, as well as music, as characters to carry the story along. The tale of twin brothers, excellently portrayed by Michael B. Jordan, returning to their hometown in the Mississippi Delta to forge a life of success with the help of their cousin Sammy’s talent.    Jordan’s performance of twins, Smoke and Stack,    is something to be revered as the subtle differences twins have has been brilliantly emulated on screen.   Now I also have to take a moment to praise Miles Caton* for his phenomenal performance of Sammy. The innocence of his desire but strength of ...